Does anyone here know this feeling?

like, im not easily embarrassed you know, i stay myself at all times and do a good job doing so.people are always telling me how different and 'real' i am, stuff like that. and i dont get embarrassed about nothing that has to do with me, my personality, or what i believe in.

like, ill be with a girl and im not trying to look tough at all or w/e, im just being myself,

but THE MINUTE she asks me what i do in my spare time/what kind of education i do/what i want for a career, i just get embarrassed as hell. because i know that when i tell her i want to be a musician she'll be like ''Aww another one of those idiots who think they got talent'', but even worse a hip hop producer, thats gonna be even worse ''aww another one of those a milli idiots who think their oh so gangsta bla bla bla''. and i basically end up telling them like a really blurry message about me wanting to do 'something' with music and change the topic.

i mean really, 2 years ago if someone would come up to me saying they wanted to be a beatmaker or whatever, i know i'd think that way about em. so this embarrasses me cause im not trying to give anyone the wrong impression about me.

just some incredibly random thoughts again.. anyone can relate to this?

TO me SP this could lead to a sort of stagnation in your progress as a musician, it is like your a super hero but you cannot tell anyone because they will not believe you and thinK you buggin or it is a long shot

on the other hand you want to be sociable. For what it is worth i think that if you are real as you say you are then keep it real let it out and if a mofo or hoe don't respect what you do... then guess what she ain't the one for you.

If you trying to move forward in your love for ya craft then you don't need this kinda distraction. DO YOU AND BE YOURSELF, broads come a dime a dozen and when a joint (broad) see you coasting by in the latest (benz, bm, flying spur) after she thought you were buggin'... She will wanna hop back on the DTRAIN ha ha.

Don't be embarassed for what you do because you are second guessing yourself, second guessing your talent because of what someone else thinks.

So in reality this may not be what you wanna do. and once you start wanting to do what will make others happy and not yaself, YA LOST HOMIE, YA LOST.

I get deep afta i been drinkn take it for what it is worth. FOCUS MAN, FOCUS

Posted By slliks867 on 07 Nov 2009 10:07 PM

So in reality this may not be what you wanna do. and once you start wanting to do what will make others happy and not yaself, YA LOST HOMIE, YA LOST.
 

Thats what I mean. Nicely spoken slliks SP, you listen to what that drunk says, and youll be fine. I know it aint the easy way to do it, but funk that.

Btw Fisha, I checked those groups you mentioned, thats some sick ish man

LOL @ SP... You ain't noo balllerr nigguhhh hahahaha x) ...

Gettin' embarrassed n'ish hahaha.. You lil'girl =P..

slliks had really good points and I agree with him all the way..

Eventhough errrr'body making beats nowadays.. When a girl asks me what I wanna become and I start talking about music.. They ALWAYS like it.. They immediately see my drive and that *magic spark* in my eyes..

It's all about the way you bring it.. One time a girl was just loving me for the way *I spoke about music* .. She was just staring and smiling.. I mean girls LOVE IT when you have a goal in your life and they can see the energy and drive bursting from your aura hehe ...

I NEVER start about my music untill someone asks bout' *my hobbies* or if someone else that I know starts about it to an unknown person.. but when I start spittin'... hahahaha sonnnn I bring the game home..

And I dress myself like a gangstah to even bring it further for ya .. That's my style.. Baggy ish all the way nuccah.. but they still love it.. If you real, just be yourself like slliks said..

Damn I never expected this from you SP.. I can tell you still a young cute lil'puppy hahaha

Imme give you something simple to linger over regarding girls..

"Attraction isn't a choice"

Think about what I'm trying to say with that...